Episode 6: How do I wrap my mind around this?

If it looks like we've skipped some episodes, we're sorry. We're amateurs. Episode 2, part 2 became episode 3. Episode 3, part 1, became episode 4, Episode 3, part 2, became episode 5. We are now numbering correctly from here on! In episode 6, we begin our series of how we got through the first year. The thing we remember most clearly is that primal scream: "Why?" Why did our loved one leave us? Why was death preferable to life? Why was our love not enough to save them? There are no answers. In this episode, we talk about learning to live in the why...